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My testimony - Robert Cleary

.....Dear Tammy, and to those who would understand, I really feel like after all I've experienced / seen and heard .... I need to write this.

.....This my first attempt to disclose what my experience was beginning in 1974, < this is what brought me to the abortion chambers beginning in 1982 (eight years later) ......
I had just turned 17, my father had passed away in March, my girlfriend's name was .. (I'll refer to her as 'C ....)
and in about June of that year, 'C .... (we) became pregnant ..... yikes !!

.....'C ....'s mom had grown suspicious and began calculating the dates against the number of tampons that should have been in the box .. the math didn't add up.
Therefore, she confronted 'C .... with this contradiction and asked her " 'C ...., is there ANY REASON POSSIBLE that you might be pregnant ?" 'C .... was not a good liar and said "yes" .... Then the subsequent test confirmed the obvious.

.....'C ....'s mother was FURIOUS and her Dad was just like hmmm ! .. Indeed, 'C ....'s Mother was LARGE & IN CHARGE of what was about to happen.
So here I was, a 17 year old boy in shock, and mostly concerned about my mother finding out (sound familiar ?)
After Dad passed away, I didn't want to add to Mom's stresses and her being so disappointed in me ... she did not find out during this time.

.....I knew the term 'abortion' had a negative connotation, but I knew absolutely nothing of what an abortion actually was.
I was told from 'C .... via her mom, that what she was 'ordering' was not an abortion, it was called a D&C,
after all, 'C ....'s Mother worked in the medical field and she indeed would be the one who would know.
I was told that at that point, it was not a baby, it was just a piece of tissue, not developed and simply needed to be 'snipped out'
I really wanted to believe this, for the sake of my own conscience and relief, Oh, and by the way, after a long lecture from 'C ....'s mom,
It was LEVELED to me that I had no control and/or say in this matter, PERIOD .. and I was banned from seeing 'C .... for at least a couple of months if not forever ....

.....About a month later, I remember the Saturday morning 'C .... had her appointment for this so called 'D&C'.
The previous evening, I must have spent the night at my nephew's house (Kevin and I literally grew up together) in South East Wichita.
We were (I was) driving north on Seneca approaching Pawnee ... when suddenly I found a place and pulled left into this SW parking lot,
drove to about the center of it, no other cars were around, stopped and threw my car into park and literally bursted into tears, this really freaked Kevin out.
I remember Kevin saying "Robby, what's wrong !! what's wrong !! ... I said, (crying) "I don't know, all I know, is I feel something has gone horribly wrong".
I felt like my entire soul was screaming .... well, it took me about a minute or two to re-gather my composer / pull myself together and Keven and I went on our way
.. ????? < WHAT THE HELL was THAT ?

.....Well, as teenagers usually do, about four months later, 'C .... met another guy through her older brother (not living at home) and decided to cancel me and go with him.
I think she made a good decision, I was so immature / selfish and controlling, it was a good idea for her to move on.
I think a couple of years later, she got married, and they had a little girl ... blessings to 'C .... and her new life .. I really didn't think much more about the D&C after that,
I'm sure it was better off for me, not to think of it at all.

.....Okay, so lets move on from 1974, in 1975,
I began playing the drums in Rock bands and filled my life with music / the mud, the blood and the beer (lol) .. oh what fun it was.
but as I reached the summer of 1979, I became Christian .. and MAN !!! this changed everything for me.
In 1980, I got a job doing what I wanted to do, as a Technical Art Illustrator, I started reading the Bible, listening to sermon tapes and theology.
and in 1981, I landed in a church on South Hydraulic, playing drums for them, when about a year later,
here comes this guy on a Sunday evening by the name of David Gittrich: Kansans for life, setting up a speaker / literature and a movie entitled: Assignment Life.
OH SHIT .... I was literally floored, it was the first time in my life I was confronted with the reality of what an abortion really was ..
I mean, graphic imagery (tasteful as possible, but graphic). It was like God was grabbing my soul and giving me an 'assignment' < and boy did He ever.

.....The next week was the anniversary of the Roe vs Wade decision that legalized abortion nation wade .. it was actually legal in KS in 1969.
I found myself ALL IN and ON BOARD .. on Jan 22nd we swarmed the three abortuaries in Wichita with protests / signs and literatures.
As the day moved on, I remember seeing people / couples / daughters and parents moving in and out of these facilities, and I thought,
there must be a way to be more approachable to these people, apart from all the fanfare and protest activity .. I was not ready to quit when the 'protest day' had come and gone ... I went back to these places week after week, with no sighs, no fanfare, just standing on the sidewalk with a binder of stages of in-utero photos and literature, praying for God to give guidance and a willing heart to help.
What was my main motivation ? .. well, eight years earlier, I had been LIED to and DECEIVED .. it's one thing for someone who knows what they are doing and are aware of what an abortion is and continuing. God help them.
Whether Cindy's mom was deceived and did not know, I'm not sure, I know that neither Cindy nor I did not know ...

.....THEREFORE, I will spend my time and efforts busting the deceptions and the delusions put out by these abortion facilities $$$.$$ THEY are the ones who continue to lie and deceive ... I feel that these efforts were my way of reaching back in my life and kicking these satanic forces in the ass.
I jumped on board with David Gittrich and assisted him with going to churches and any place he could set up shop ... I remember when David set up a showing at Calvary chapel on Lulu Street just south of Douglas, he again showed the movie: Assignment Life, it was at nighttime,
and about the middle of the movie, I had to get up, walk outside, walk to the end of the block (no one was around) and literally cried my eyes out .. I believe God had me on the right track.

.....After a few years into this, I finally sat down and wrote a letter to C ....'s mother, still living at the same address. no, I did not scold or lecture her in malice, not at all.
but I was very distinct in my subject ... it went something like this:
.....Dear Mrs. B ....,
I'm writing to you concerning the issue we dealt with back in 1974, yes, I know it would have been very difficult to raise a child at the ages we were.
my question is: was it really worth taking the life of your first grand child ? was the decision you made made in ignorance or understanding what an abortion was ? only you and God know. .. I now know what an abortion is, I also know that God has forgiven me in my part, and am now prepared to meet this child in Heaven ... my prayer is that C ...., you and Mr. B .... will also be prepared for that priceless reunion.
..... ......... sincerely, Robert Cleary ..........I never got a response.

.....Needless to say, this is the issue that brought me to the sidewalks of Wichita's abortion chambers.
I had many women who came and went assisting in this effort, Betty Born, Carol Tydie (sp), Sherry Merrihew, were some of the most remembered and most affective over a six year period unto 1988.
Many patrons of the clinics were communicated with and decided to leave, their final decision was never known.
I have many wonderful memories and experiences with the people who decided to continue their pregnancies.
ie, thank you to Tammy Schafer who made the decision for life and has gone on to be such a trooper in the pro-life cause as a nurse working with Choices Clinic on East Kellogg and even now in Derby KS,
preforming thousands of sonic-ultrasounds on women who needed assistance and understanding and help continuing their pregnancies. She has been there. blessings always.

.....In conclusion, I want to quote a scripture.

2 Corinthians 10 ........
10:3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:
10:4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;
10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

.....Blessings to all who love and value the precious life God has given us, as we preach and teach his truth until he comes to take us home.

.....Sincerely: Robert Cleary






































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